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ajsk24
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Country: United States
State: California
Birthday: 3/31/1981
Gender: Female
Interests: My dog Wilson, movies, reading books, eating, anything outdoorsy, dogs, playing poker, watching korean drama...
Expertise: eating, tasting, receiving massages, loving dogs
Occupation: Student
Industry: Legal
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Member Since:
7/5/2002
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| Between the Lip and the Kiss Between the Hand and the Fist Between Rumor and Prayer Between Dungeon and Tower Between Fear and Liberty Always between... | | |
| It's raining cats and dogs right now. It's kinda scary bc it's really windy and stormy. A co-worker got almost blown away when she tried to go across the street for lunch. She is much taller than me, so presumably weighs more than me, so I ain't gonna go outside today. This weather makes me think of the 4 years I spent in Rochester. While I really value some friends I made while I was at Rochester, I did not like the weather... and "did not like" is an understatement - I am just trying not to be spiteful. Cold weather sucks bc it makes me not want to go outside. And I don't want to go outside bc it's so damn cold. So, I guess we - me and the weather - are both at fault for my laziness. But, gosh, Rochester was so cold. I used to go to the basement of the dorm and run the dryer for a few minutes (you have to pay for washers but dryers are free) and then open it and stick my upper body in... and it would be so nice and toasty for a few minutes... and I'd wear two really thick jackets bc I couldn't stand the cold.. cold weather reminds me of a dear friend from rochester... E.Y.L. was just a bundle of energy and joy. I am not sure what she ate but she had so much energy and often wanted to make snow angels and go sledding whenever it was cold... and I'd protest and tell her it was too cold... and she'd physically drag me out... and I'd lose bc she's a lot stronger than me. Now, I look back and wish I conjured up more energy and gone out with her more often and more cheerfully. moral of the story: I can't turn back the time but I can appreciate and enjoy what's in front of me today. Maybe I will embrace this weather and run around the city in rain like a little kid... or maybe I will just enjoy a hot cup of coco and read a book... | | |
| I am so happy, so I am taking a minute to xanga about this. I have so much work that I can probably work all weekend and still have some work left over for next week. And I just got an email from a partner that she might have a research project for me that she needs by early next week. I must sound crazy but I am so happy to have work because 1) it makes me feel needed, 2) I will meet my hours this month, and 3) I will get better at what I do with more work I do. I am so happy. But just to point out how normal and sane I am, I am not going to work all weekend, I am only going to work one day.. and play the other day... THEN I'd have work to do next week... weeee~ | | |
| I will get to see my love this weekend... and I am taking him to a new vet for a checkup on saturday morning... to make sure he is healthy... every time my mom or dad tells me over the phone that he is sluggish or not as hyper, I stop breathing for a minute and I feel like my world is crumbling down. And then they assure me that it's just his age.. that he is just aging... and they are probably right... but I want to and going to do everything in my power to make sure he lives as long as he can. Without pain. I love that dog to pieces... I love his eyes... I love how he smells.. I love how he has so much love for the family. I just simply love him. It's been a crazy week or two... at work and personal life.. and I need more time and sleep (wouldn't we all want that) I often wish I had 48 hours a day.... by freezing the time like that girl from the show "Out of this world". That would be the superhuman power I'd want... forget about flying or being freakshly strong.. i just want more time. Okay, I digress.. so it's been really really crazy... but I love my life right now. I love my new apartment. I love living by myself. I love all the new furniture I bought. I love all the freedom I have... I love the fact that I have room to change and improve... and enough challenges to tackle. I love the opportunity I have... and the endless possibilities (in terms of what I could do with my life). I am starting to feel like I can do anything I want. I am working on giving my 100% at work... but at the same time, I will be okay even if I get laid off or something because... there is a whole world full of opportunities out there for me. Am I being too optimistic? Maybe.. but I will continue to bask in this joy/fantasy as long as I can. Simply because I can. Another thing I love right now.. is figuring out the kind of person whom I want to share my life with... I am actually not looking for a relatoinship but I am just trying to figure out what I like and don't like... because in the past, I've been with guys that I shouldn't have... for various different reasons... maybe it was from my low self-esteem or out of convenience.. but for whatever reason, I am starting to believe that I don't want to settle for anything less than what I want and deserve... and this is a great feeling. | | |
| So, I am trying to make some life-altering decisions... and got a fortune cookie to help me. I know they ain't real but I was going to use it and intepret it to fit into my situation.... so I crack one open with great anticipation.... and it says "LeVonne was born weighting 9 lbs, 14oz" WTH?! who is LeVonne? and why did he/she weigh so much? Is the fortune cookie trying to tell me that I am going to have a fat baby? I need to find a person named LeVonne? My life is one giant cryptic mystery? I dunno!! you tell me! so much for getting help from the fortune cookie... | | |
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